I will be honest though, I was terrified not having that check in each week. I was afraid I would slip into my old ways and say "oh well I have 18 days till weigh in I can have that square and not count it"
I won't deny that I had a square or two over the Holidays, however, I made sure I counted them in my daily calories. If I knew I was going to have a square or something I don't normally eat then I made sure I re-organized my meals the rest of the day to accommodate it. These are all brand new things for me. Not because I was never taught them, I had been taught them throughout my entire life, but I never put them into effect like I should have.
Every occasion in our family is celebrated with food. During the Holidays we had 2 turkey dinners, a lobster & steak dinner, and an appetizer buffet. Add to those meals there were trays and trays of sweets for desert. Although my family didn't change how THEY celebrated special occasions, I HAD TO CHANGE how I celebrated and this is going to be a constant battle for me.
I didn't get to 364.4lbs because I didn't enjoy food. I absolutely LOVE food but I have had to change how I choose to love food. In the last few months I have been able to switch it up and I am starting to enjoy making new recipes and baking for others so much. I can't say I don't want to eat the food from time to time but seeing the reactions of people who try my cooking/baking is a reward for me.
I was so excited to step on the scale last evening at TOPS because I knew I didn't over-indulge like I have in the past years during the Holidays. I was so excited to see that I was DOWN! I lost 6.2lbs since my last weigh in on December 18, 2012!
I am now down 61.2lbs!!
I am so happy that I have reached this goal. I wanted to reach 60lbs loss by December 26th, however, we didn't have a TOPS Meeting and I didn't want to ask someone to weigh me in over the Holidays. I did weigh myself on my home scale but I was too nervous to take it as a real weight loss without it being done on the TOPS scale. Now that it has been validated on the TOPS Scale I will say I reached this goal.
My next goal is to be below 300lbs before my MRI on January 28th, 2013. The last time I had an MRI scheduled I was unable to get it done because of my weight. I was not too heavy for the machine I was too wide for it. So if I can go there below 300lbs I will feel absolutely AMAZING!





