I'm Wearing Jeans!!!

Yesterday I had a pair of pants on that I bought a little over 6 months ago.  They are comfortable in the legs but still a little tight, however, they are so large around the waist and hips that I can take them off without unbuttoning them.  

Today I decided that I would try on a pair of jeans that I haven't been able to wear since I purchased them.  I tried them on in the store and I thought they fit perfectly, then I had to get them hemmed.  When I got them back home I never wore them again because they were too tight. Today they fit GREAT ... not perfect because a few more pounds will make them even more comfortable, however ...

It's the first time I have worn jeans in almost ... 3 YEARS!!!

One Week till Surgery

WOW ... I'm one week away from surgery. 

I can't believe it is getting so close.  I have been feeling great on the liquid diet, but  I will be VERY happy to have it over with soon.  More so because so many people keep asking me if I'm hungry yet.  I am doing well weight wise on the diet as well. As of last evening I was down another 6.8lbs bringing my total weight loss up to 21lbs.

This is a number I haven't seen in a few years.  I hope to NEVER see it again either!!

Day 11 - Weekend Again

Well I am one day away from being half way through this first journey.  I feel amazing and can't believe that I did it so far.  I was very scared when I first heard I had to be on a liquid diet for 3 weeks.  I didn't know what to expect.  I was afraid I would be starving every day no matter how often people told me I would be fine.  I worried about seeing food in the house and wanting it.  I was worried that smelling food would make me break the liquid diet and make me have to start all over.

None of these things have happened!! I am not hungry despite the fact that EVERYONE who hasn't done this thinks I should be starving to death.  I am actually so full some evenings I don't feel the need for supper but eat it because its something I need to do to stay healthy.   I don't care who eats around me or what is being made in the same house, I know that I am fine without it. I have even made meals for Colin and didn't mind it at all.  I know he's not going to be on the same meal plan as I am ever, unless he's sick, and I can't stop doing my daily routines of making meals, cleaning up after them, and watching someone eat them.  I can still say things smell delicious without eating them which is something that is different for me.

I went, last evening, to watch Colin fly his RC plane and we went down to the dam (actually behind it on the walking track) and I thought to myself, this is the first time I've sat here in my car without a fast food meal in my lap.  It was a very ODD experience for me.  I hope to have many more times in the future where this is the case!!

My next step is to make sure I have everything ready for our trip to Mississauga.  We leave in 10 days!! I am also trying to make meals plans for after the surgery so I don't struggle with trying to figure out what I can and can't eat. I hope it goes as well in real life as it is going in my head!

Week One Down

Well I got weighed in last evening at TOPS and was pleasantly surprised to see that I have lost 9.6lbs in ONE Week .. yes ONE WEEK.  Something I never thought possible and I know it is not something that will happen after the surgery but it sure is nice to see!

From my highest weight I am now down 14.2lbs

I am entering Week Two with a new sense of accomplishment. I don't know if I thought I couldn't do it or that no matter how well I stuck to the process I would fail, but stepping on the scale last evening was the best feeling in the world.

Weekends

Well I'm almost through the weekend and its been an adventure of control for sure.  We spent Friday evening with friends. We played some games but what made it a little difficult was the kids.  Carrie & Joey's kids were here as well and as usual wanted treats.  So we brought a bag of ketchup chips back for them.  Normally I would never think about them but since I can only have shakes & water the smell of them was overwhelming!!

I did get through it but it was a struggle and then Saturday was just agonizing.  I felt sick to my stomach, hungry, and tired all at once.  I couldn't get rid of the feeling with just water so I napped. It was the only way to eliminate the feeling.


I am very lucky that I love the shakes so far. Below is my life for the next 17 days. I haven't had to put any flavoring into the shakes yet which is good but I'm sure as the days go on I will need to.


I just need to remember that no matter how bad they taste they are making my surgery safer every day and helping me achieve what I have always wanted to in life and that is be healthy!

Day 1 - Here We Go

Well last evening was my last weight in prior to starting this journey.  I went to TOPS thinking I had gained weight after the meals I have been enjoying this past week but to my surprise I had actually lost 3.2lbs and have no idea how but I will take it.   My starting weight for this journey is 359.8!

 

I also asked for a few before pictures because I really wanted to document the size changes as they occur. I am not a fan of getting my picture taken at all right now so these were rough to have taken!!

I am so ready to start this journey and although I know it is going to probably be the hardest journey of my LIFE I plan to make the best of it because its what is best for me!

Today started with a shake of course! Vanilla to start and I decided to have different colored bottles for each meal to help me out. Here is my first shake made from the SlimTime mix and 10oz/300ml/1 & 1/4 cups of water.  I could add more if I find them too think but for now I'm sticking to this exactly!

Here is to a New Beginning!

One More Day Left In My Old Life ...

Bring On This Amazing Journey ... I have only one day till I start my liquid diet.  Last evening Jay came over and did an interview with/for me. It was definitely like a therapy session.  He asked questions no one else did/would. He just set up the camera ... sat off to the side of it ... and started asking me questions.  I had a really hard time answering some of them. I cried through a lot of the interview, not like a sob or ugly cry as Marcy calls it but tears streaming down my face for most of it. It was an EMOTIONAL ROLLER COASTER that I needed to start my new journey off with.

I am SOOO happy he is doing this with/for me but he's not letting me see the videos till Christmas. He wants me to make it through a good portion of this before I see any. He wants me to not change how open & honest I am in the videos and he thinks if I see them I will hold back on my answers or become too scripted.

Tonight is my last TOPS meeting before my new life begins.  I will be getting a picture or pictures taken, my measurements and a shot of my weight on the scale.  I will post them this evening and continue on with this blog then!